If you are truly searching for reality, do you need to tear down the structures that frame reality?
To find the house of God does the curtain need to rip, and the temple be destroyed, so that it can be rebuilt three days later?
Strong language, but perhaps art can provide the means to to this in non violent, consensual, ways.
We don’t expect a tree to look like the seed it grows from. If we can free our minds from expectations laid upon us, then perhaps we will be better able to recognise God at work. The task then becomes one of recognising God at work and joining in with the growth, rather than planning and imposing a predetermined form.
https://www.nationalgalleries.org/art-and-artists/features/find-your-surreal
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